07.Aiden

“After struggling to accept my homosexuality as a teenager, I became convinced that I was a transgender man after hyperfixating on trans social media, and misguidance from my therapist and doctors. After years of transition, I finally put the pieces together that my brain works differently from other people; I am autistic. After this realization, I put together a lot of pieces of my life and slowly realized that nothing about me made me a man, and that I have always been an androgynous lesbian. It was terrifying, but in other ways it felt peaceful and freeing. It is an incredibly vulnerable experience to have my decision to medically transition as a teenager be a permanent part of myself in the fact that my voice is deeper and my chest flat. I wish that I had not medically transitioned as a teenager, and I wish for other people, particularly other young undiagnosed-autistic lesbians, to not go through a trans-identity crisis like I did. I long for a future where competent therapists and doctors can help dysphoric/dysmorphic, identity confused, vulnerable people realize that there are more options than transitioning.”