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Molly, 26, Eastern USA
“I was always a tomboy growing up. I looked up to my dad and brothers as if they were super heroes. I always wanted to be just like them. I wore my brothers old clothes and had short hear for a good portion of my childhood but I was always comfortable being female. I just liked being a masculine female. I moved states when I was 15 and ended up meeting some trans people, this is when I started to get confused. The new friends I'd made started to say that how I was when I was younger would make sense if I was trans. So I decided, maybe I was. I started going by a different name and binding. Eventually I told my family, who were all concerned but did their best to be there for me. It was a confusing time and a lot of the information they received was unfortunately one sided. The therapist I had at the time broke the rules and wrote me a letter for hormones months earlier than she was suppose to. I was thrilled at the time, but I realize now if she had followed the rules I would have never had to go through the transition I now regret. As time went on and I checked off the boxes, ☑️ Legal name change, ☑️ Hormones, ☑️ Hysterectomy consultation ☑️ Top surgery consultation. I started to pass all the time as male and it felt great.
But I also graduated highschool, started to drift away from my friends, met the love of my life and started to live in the real, grown up world. Being trans was no longer the center of my universe. I already had decided a hysterectomy and top surgery wasn't things I needed. So I completed all my goals, yet I still felt empty and like something was wrong. I came to the realization that I regretted my transition and felt like I had just been following a crowd I didn't belong in. I made irreversible changes to myself and I still was unhappy in my body. So I stopped hormones and decided to detransition. This was the best decision of my life.
I now am almost certain that I am on the spectrum and the feeling of being uncomfortable in my body came from that. I never had dysphoria but none of the professionals in my life who were suppose to help me through this time, asked any of the important questions. As much as I regret my transition, I also take it as an experience that made me who I am today. I may have never met my boyfriend or gotten the job I have. I try to see the best in my unfortunate situation. But I hope as time goes on, less struggling kids slip through the cracks. We shouldn't be afraid to question and talk about how someone feels. There are a lot of different reasons someone may feel uncomfortable in their bodies, but not every solution is to transition.”
Molly, 26, Eastern USA
“I was always a tomboy growing up. I looked up to my dad and brothers as if they were super heroes. I always wanted to be just like them. I wore my brothers old clothes and had short hear for a good portion of my childhood but I was always comfortable being female. I just liked being a masculine female. I moved states when I was 15 and ended up meeting some trans people, this is when I started to get confused. The new friends I'd made started to say that how I was when I was younger would make sense if I was trans. So I decided, maybe I was. I started going by a different name and binding. Eventually I told my family, who were all concerned but did their best to be there for me. It was a confusing time and a lot of the information they received was unfortunately one sided. The therapist I had at the time broke the rules and wrote me a letter for hormones months earlier than she was suppose to. I was thrilled at the time, but I realize now if she had followed the rules I would have never had to go through the transition I now regret. As time went on and I checked off the boxes, ☑️ Legal name change, ☑️ Hormones, ☑️ Hysterectomy consultation ☑️ Top surgery consultation. I started to pass all the time as male and it felt great.
But I also graduated highschool, started to drift away from my friends, met the love of my life and started to live in the real, grown up world. Being trans was no longer the center of my universe. I already had decided a hysterectomy and top surgery wasn't things I needed. So I completed all my goals, yet I still felt empty and like something was wrong. I came to the realization that I regretted my transition and felt like I had just been following a crowd I didn't belong in. I made irreversible changes to myself and I still was unhappy in my body. So I stopped hormones and decided to detransition. This was the best decision of my life.
I now am almost certain that I am on the spectrum and the feeling of being uncomfortable in my body came from that. I never had dysphoria but none of the professionals in my life who were suppose to help me through this time, asked any of the important questions. As much as I regret my transition, I also take it as an experience that made me who I am today. I may have never met my boyfriend or gotten the job I have. I try to see the best in my unfortunate situation. But I hope as time goes on, less struggling kids slip through the cracks. We shouldn't be afraid to question and talk about how someone feels. There are a lot of different reasons someone may feel uncomfortable in their bodies, but not every solution is to transition.”