23. Rada
Rada, 27y/o, Costa Rica
“ Hi beautiful souls. My name is Rada, which is my birth name that I chose to reclaim when I made the decision to detransition.
Growing up I always felt very different from the other girls, I was that tomboy. I wasn't a girly girl and I thought that made me less beautiful. I remember feeling like the ugly girl because I thought I was looking too much like a boy. I remember being extremely uncomfortable with having breasts and secretly wishing I was a boy instead.
At 18 I found "transgenderism" and I felt like I had finally found the answer to all my pain. I remember it feeling like my whole life finally made sense and I knew what had been wrong with me this whole time, "I had been born in the wrong body".
After transitioning and identifying as a transgender man for almost 9 years my soul was calling me to embark on a healing journey having absolutely no idea what I was about to discover about myself.
I started to question my testosterone treatment and it became so clear to me that I was really just trying to be somebody else. And I will never forget the moment when I realized that I was never a man. I had always been a woman just really struggling to love and accept herself.
I understood that my whole transition had been an escape to run away from myself and my pain. Today it is so clear to me that transitioning was nothing but a very deep trauma response. Today I know that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me, I was always enough. What I needed wasn't to change myself at all, what I really needed was to accept myself.”
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